The biggest sigh in the world

Yes... i wish it could have been different... i wish we could have changed the world... i wished for everything to change... i prayed... though i know i'm not a catholic... i had faith in what this was... i had faith... today i don't find it... i just can't... who's gonna find it this time? did i lose everything i had? did i win this losing game?
i don't know anything today... i just know that sometimes it's just too late to try harder... sometimes it's worthless... i don't wanna try hard anymore... i just want to feel the life... the love... the freedom and the truth... and i will let myself feel it because i have nothing left to do...

I cried last night with this poem... i love it

“I carry your heart with me”

E. E. Cummings

I carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere i go you go,
my dear; and whatever is done by only me is
your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

xx
Smooth